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November 1st

Dear [Insert Your Name Here],

I hope this letter finds you well. If it does, I would appreciate a response at your earliest convenience, just to put my mind at ease regarding your well-being. Alert me at once should you have need of me.

As for myself, I am well, and rested. I wanted to write this before I resumed my duties to assist the civilians in the city. As I am certain I will be called to report to Esdham soon, now that the undead have been laid to rest, it is imperative that I find a chocobo of my own, so that I may travel freely between cities should the opportunity arise.

I plan to embark on a three-day expedition, from November 7th through the 9th, and you are welcome to accompany me during any number of those days. Be certain to bring warm clothes, fresh water, food that will not easily spoil, and a sleeping bag or tent. Until this time, I will likely be found assisting with the responsibilities of cleaning up and healing injuries.

Know that I will think well of you while I reside in Esdham, and I look forward to your letters. Do not hesitate to write should you ever feel the desire. If you wish to visit, you will be warmly welcomed. I will not be far, if you ever have need of me.

Sincerely,
Rukia Kuchiki

P.S. Now that I am not so busily engaged in the capture and detainment of rogue spirits, I would like to make good on our former agreement. Please notify me if you still wish to receive your date, and inform me when you would like to meet. If you have any preferred activities or meals, please notify me prior to our engagement, so that I can plan an appropriate evening.

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[Rukia is quiet as Yuffie starts to cry. Damn... That hadn't been her intention. But maybe this is what Yuffie's been needing to do for quite some time. She sets aside her tea and slides off of the couch arm, taking a seat in front of Yuffie with one leg curled beneath her. She reaches out and brushes away the young girl's tears from her cheek.]

What you say is true. I do not know these things.

[And she was never meant to know them. She doesn't want to know them. She's felt the pain of loss, and she can't imagine what it would be like to love someone that much. But she knows it can happen, and it's happened to Yuffie.]

You do. If you need to spill your heart, I would never wish to stop you.

[She smiles tentatively, her brow creased.]

I would give you answers, if I had them. All I can say is that, if you are absolutely certain that this young man is the one you want, pursue that chance while you are able.

[The problem is that Yuffie doesn’t know. She can’t figure out anything that she’s feeling anymore. She knows what it’s like when he’s near. It’s like a dream, like nothing outside of the two of them exists but then it doesn’t feel real. She doesn’t know how to handle it and she doesn’t know who to talk to. She’s still fighting with Tifa and the silent treatment doesn’t work well when you want to talk to someone. This isn’t the sort of thing she can go to most of her ‘friends’ about and her other girl friend is Chiaki who understands relationships about as well as Rukia does.

She doesn’t know what her heart wants; she only knows that it hurts.]

I don’t know.

[She sniffles looking over at Rukia. Yuffie’s been a jerk and she knows that and yet Rukia is still trying to comfort her. It’s weird but for the moment she’s glad.]

I thought it was because he helped me… after…

[This time Yuffie doesn’t continue, her eyes find a comfortable spot on the floor as she tries to wipe away the tears. However, with each pass of her palm more spill free like an unending water fall.]

[She's just secretly relieved that her (lack of) love life isn't being discussed anymore. Best believe she's going to brood over what Yuffie said later, since she never thought of herself as a maneater before. Is she? But she knows of no one who might hold tender feelings. It's something to consider later.]

[For now, all she can do is take a handkerchief out of her inner pocket and pass it to Yuffie so she can dry her face and wipe her nose. It sounds like there's a story, but she's not sure if she should ask for it. Yuffie already knows some personal things about Rukia and vice versa, so what could be more private than that?]

[She waits, hands in her lap, to see if Yuffie will continue. If not, then she won't push.]

[Yuffie takes the handkerchief wondering absently if she should start carrying one around. Angeal had told her to open up to people, that they might understand but she doesn’t want Rukia to look at her differently or treat her differently. She looks down at Rukia with a huff before falling back against the couch. Her eyes close and she drapes one arm over her face hoping to hide the tremor in her voice.]

A little less they a year ago… I and three others were kidnapped by the Empire; by kalki. [She pauses inhaling a deep breath and then releasing it before she continues.]

While we were in prison they performed tests on us. To see how much our bodies could take before our crystals healed us or what powers can awaken when we are close to death.

[She doesn’t know if she can go into detail. She hasn’t told anyone what the pain has felt like, only Luffy knows and that’s because he was forced to experience as well, all while she watched. Yuffie’s silent for a long moment after, she doesn’t cry but she keeps her eyes covered and closed. Ever since then she hasn’t felt like herself and it took a long time for her to be chipper again. Sometimes it’s easier to smile than feel sad.]

[That's barbaric. Rukia's eyes widen, and there's a stiffening in her jaw. This was something she hadn't heard about. Either she'd missed it in the accounts she'd read, or she'd simply skimmed over it too quickly. And to think that she had once suggested diplomacy with the Herans, during the time loop! She's disgusted.]

[But this isn't about getting angry on the behalf of her friends. She's listening still, and inclines her head faintly.]

And this person...MarKus...helped you to recover afterward?

[It's hard for Yuffie to get mad anymore. At first she was angry, she felt weak and frustrated and there was nothing that she could do to make those feelings go away. Now she just sounds tired, as if every part of her has just given up trying to understand. It's done with and she wants to just move forward.

With her arm still covering her eyes she continues in the same flat tone.]

A lot of people did... we were rescued...eventually [She almost shrugs with that last word.]

I started to hang out with him a lot. I was a little scared to be on my own. [Even now she doesn't sleep until the sun comes up and only then for a few hours. It's hard to close her eyes and not think of that place. Sometimes Vincent will sleep on the floor to her room and she sleeps better but it doesn't always work.]

[Rukia's frown deepens. It sounds like she's still scared to be on her own, but she can't be sure, and she doubts Yuffie would appreciate being accused of something like that. So she keeps it to herself.]

I suppose that can often be the cause of a very deep bond forming between two people.

[Yuffie doesn't like being accused of anything so it's probably wise that Rukia doesn't bring that up. There is a lot that unsettles the young princess though she doesn't like to show others her weakness.]

I guess so... I don't know... I feel weird.

[It hurts.]

I'm not good at liking someone.

[I'm scared.]

Sides, we'll end up going back to our own worlds.

[Then I'll be alone again.]

[Rukia sighs. It's hard not to give advice; it's just how she is. But she has absolutely no reference from which she can draw. She's never been in love, and what's more, knowing that they'll all go back to their own worlds is just further justification for why she shouldn't bother. It's just not what she wants.]

[But it's what Yuffie wants.]

Then I suppose you'll have to decide if he's worth it.

[She calmly folds her hands in her lap.]

If the joy of being together is worth the pain of inevitable separation, then why should you not pursue what you desire?

But if not, then there is nothing left to debate. That is the heart of the matter.

[She bows her head and closes her eyes.]

Nonetheless...to avoid a beginning, just because it will someday end, is foolish. It is simply the nature of life. What is born must die. We were not put here to dread the endings, but to enjoy the time we have with the people we care about while we have the chance, and be grateful that we had the chance at all.

[Yuffie sniffles looking over at Rukia with a look of despair. With someone who really wants to give advice Rukia's doing a good job of not doing that. Yuffie wants an answer which isn't coming as easily as what she wants.

She falls against the couch letting her legs curl up beneath her until she's in a small ball. Her hair fans around her and her fingers began to pull the long strains from her face.]

I don't know.

[She really has no idea what to do.]

I feel like both would be good... I'd rather make the other person happier in the long run.

[It's not as if he'd come looking for her or jump between worlds.]

Besides in the future he has a daughter and I don't think it's with me...

Have you spoken to him of your feelings?

[Because that's probably a much better idea than talking to Rukia. She's good at listening, but this really isn't her realm of specialty. Surely Yuffie must have known this. It kind of troubles her that she can't be of more assistance.]

Not… completely.

[She hasn’t told him all of it.]

When our folders were released he let me read his. I noticed he had a daughter and asked him why us having a relationship was a good idea if he had a family at home. It hurt… I thought…

[She lets out a heavy breath.]

I actually thought we could be happy together…

[Yuffie rolls over to face the back of the couch. If Rukia doesn’t move her she’s sleeping there tonight. She doesn’t want to move or to think. She closes her eyes and lets the world drift away so she doesn’t have to feel anything at all.]

I was wrong.

Wait. He what?!

[Talk about a complete mood reversal. Rukia went from awkward and silently sympathetic to completely aghast. Maybe if the daughter hadn't been conceived yet, it might be fine, but this...! She spins around to face Yuffie, kneeling on the couch cushion.]

Do you mean to say he was already in a committed relationship before coming here? What is the status of the mother?

[Because if he kissed Yuffie, then he's a vile cheater, and unworthy of Yuffie's affections. Worse, he's making her cry and fret, the vile fiend!]

[Yuffie waves her hand.]

I have no idea if he's dating anyone when he left. His daughter is in the future but I knew he had a girl friend.

[She has no idea what the status of said girl friend is though.]

When we were at the beach he said he'd come to my world. [she laughs but it's pained as if ironic.] My dad would hate him.

[He very much has a mentally similar to ShinRa when it comes to technology, as much as she wants a giant robot.]

....You could do so much better.

[She knows that's rude to say, and she sighs heavily, but really... He shouldn't be making her cry over this. If he has a girlfriend back home, he should be true to her. If he isn't, then there's a good chance he might not be true to Yuffie either. She puts a hand on Yuffie's head, patting her consolingly. Now she understands the mixed feelings a little better.]

Surely there must be someone else in this world that you favor? One who would be less likely to break your heart.

[Yuffie looks up at Rukia with a gaze that suggests she's just gone insane.]

Really? Do you want my track with guys? I can list it out.

[She sits up in a swift motion and then beings holding up fingers.]

First Zack, he's dead and likes someone who eventually becomes my friend. Then Cloud who is totally in love with Tifa and vice versa but they are both to stupid to realize it. Plus Cloud is super young here and it's creepy. I thought maybe I'd like Vincent but he's so wrapped up in his pain and his lost love that he can't even live a normal life. 50% of the time I don't even know if we are friends. I liked Ramza when I first arrived but he sees me as a younger sister because I was fifteen when we first met. The fact that I'm almost nineteen doesn't matter and I'm not bring in that up ever so that's done with. Yuri was cute but I mixed him up with a friend and he's sort of a jerk and lets face it, he probably can't find someone to give up that pessimistic view for. Manami is oblivious. MarKus I can't figure out. Reno who is gay. Luffy is an idiot. Ace is to serious.

See? Nothing!

[Yuffie throws her arms in the air and then falls back down to the couch. She's doomed to be alone.]

Oh! Manami would be a good match for you.

[She doesn't know most of the others, but she can understand her feelings regarding Yuri. And she wouldn't approve of anyone who's still hung up on another girl, there's no sense wasting time on someone like that in her humble itty bitty opinion. But of all the others, she remembers Manami's bright and sunny attitude, not to mention the cheerful and friendly letters he wrote. Plus he liked Rukia's art, which gave him big approval points in Rukia's book.]

That's who I would choose for you, based on your list. He can't remain clueless forever.

[She folds her arms and nods sagely.]

Of course, that's all null and void if you have no romantic interest, but if you do, I could see you being happy together.

[Or just downright happy period, Manami's the most upbeat person she's met in a long time.]</small.

Ummm...

[Yuffie fidgets as if she's been caught. She looks up at her friend and then makes a noise that doesn't make sense before burying her face into the throw pillow that's conveniently located right in front of her.]

NOPE! I'm not telling you.

[She's definitely hiding something.]

You're not?

[She just spilled her guts about kissing and romance and her dead mom, but her relation with Manami is confidential? What in the world did they do?]

Why is that?

[Seriously, she does not understand these chaotic boundaries.]

[Yuffie has never once claimed to make sense.

She peeks over at Rukia and the shinigami might notice the slight tint to Yuffie's cheeks before she decides that talking to the pillow is her best option.]

I kissed Manami...

[Her voice is muffled but the confession is there.]

You did?

[And he's still clueless? They might really have their work cut out for them, if that's the case. Rukia blinks, furrowing her brow.]

Oi, just how many people have you kissed in this world?

[And you called Rukia a maneater! For shame.]

[Yuffie has to think about that question. There are a lot of people that she wants to kiss besides there is no harm in kissing someone. She waits until the red from her cheeks ebbs before sitting up. The throw pillow is resting in her lap as she looks up at Rukia.]

Not to many... I accidentally saw Cloud naked in the shower once.

[That really isn't her fault though. It's the rules of snow ball wars.]

That's when I was fifteen.

[She pauses.]

I don't know who've I've kissed...

I have no wish for further details!

[Can they pretend Cloud being naked was never brought up at all? Or anyone else for that matter? Her brain doesn't need anything of that nature.]

How can you say that? Clearly you do, if you just named two of them. Which others?

[Yuffie really doesn't remember. She day dreams about kissing people and there are times that she kisses boys on the cheek just to tease. The only problem is that she knows that they don't take it seriously.]

Should I kiss more people?

[She looks up at Rukia feeling a little confused. What's bad about kissing?]

I haven't kissed Yuri. I don't think.

Er...that's not really for me to say... The courtship customs of the living seem to vary so greatly.

[Kissing seems to be a fairly serious commitment in the Soul Society, at least as far as what she's observed in others, but they've all been dead for decades. Times may have changed.]

Is it truly such a casual gesture now...?

[She had no opinion one way or the other about kissing Yuri. Personally she wouldn't recommend it, but then again, she wonders if his esteem might improve if someone believed he was worth kissing. All she knows is that she, herself, will not be doing the honors. Ever.]

/patpats there there

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